Addiction

So initially the addiction candle was for my husband with his drugs, Infidelity, and Abandoning. Second time that I burnt this candle I decided to chant a Petition for my self as well. My chant was to not be a weak naive fool behind my husband and to not be obsessed and emotional behind him in a negative way As I’ve done in the past. my husband is currently in jail and he’s been calling me frequently to bond him out. We were fussing back and fourth with each other on and off for 24 hours so I I Sporadically did this chant for two hours. I began to feel Nauseous and just sick all over my entire body to the point where I didn’t want to get out of bed! Eventually I threw up everything that I ate and I feel a little better. I love this man but I don’t want to be weak behind him or allow him to think it’s ok to hurt me or she just going to give in anyways! It’s ok to love some one and put your foot down so they can respect you because him and his family take me as a joke this isn’t his first round in jail and of course I would bond him out and get made a full of. I’ve followed @Audra Dukes stubborn target list so I have Definitely layered all of my work for him. If I do decide to get him out I want it to be right. I think this was a sure sign that I was detoxing from my negative addictions and obsessions with my husband! arguing and being codependent can be an addictive trate just as much as a drug addicts! He was calling over and over to the point that I couldn’t take and I had the urge to answer but I knew it was going to be a severe argument! I felt myself getting sick because I was tempted to give him and just pick up an extra 500 from him mom and sister to start the bond process. His family is messy and they don’t like me they just contact me when they want me to help get my husband out of some type of trouble. If I get him out it’s going to be on my terms and with my own money! I have to heal me in order to have my Target the right way.....