Blocking myself from progress

I participated in 3 rituals from march-april and i have not seen any progress. It was revealed to me recently that im not seeing results because i was hurt and betrayed by someone i love and now im very angry and i say hurtful things/think hurtful things about them. What candle or elixir could i use to help me heal from this so i can stop blocking myself from seeing results? I ordered the healing soufflé a few weeks ago but i have not received it yet. Thank you