I couldn’t stop crying!

Ok so following my post yesterday, I’ve swallowed all concerns and started my INTENSE! When I tell you there was every distraction to stop me mostly through my baby’s. I kept having this surge of unsureness that was so strong but I did it. I wrote my petition, spoke my intentions and close the jar. I lite my candle and proceeded to chant. After a while I proceeded to cook and check on burning levels of candle. It’s flame was clam. I started the candle around 7 or 8. Around 10 I don’t know what was wrong with me! I just started crying! I felt a bit of sadness. I cried myself to sleep. I woke up around 11:00 my mom called me crying she didn’t know why. To be honest me ether I talk to her clan her down but focus on what she loves and positive thing’s. Soon as I got of the phone with her I cried myself back to sleep . I woke up for work about 5 am. I don’t have a snuff so I simply put the lid on top. Rite after my youngest woke up crying. In a rush I let him know it’s ok and put him back to sleep. Did I do something wrong am I suppose to cry? I didn’t wake up in the best spirt a bit hesitant to go to work. Literally I wanted to say fuck it! Is this suppose to be happening?