For most of my life I’ve been running from who I was created to be. I just wanted to be normal, you know...fit in!! When the messages would come, I would block them, I didn’t want to hear shit, I didn’t want to tell anyone shit, I didn’t want to see shit, I didn’t want to feel anyone else’s shit!!! As we all know living a lie can only last for so long. So, eventually I started going to church, and I have to say it was a great experience. For the first time in my life I felt normal. Having the ability to prophesy, and all the extras, gave my life meaning. Until one day I crossed the threshold of the church doors and I heard clearly, there is only so far you can go here. I would get this message over and over almost every time I walked through those doors. Then the dreams started again, dreams I’d been having but had stopped for awhile. When I asked what was the message behind this one dream in particular, I was told to learn your history. So I did!! Babbbbyyyy let me tell you that journey was hell in a hand basket. Yet, I learned! What I learned caused me to walk away from the church, unfortunately I put those running shoes back on and I was at it again. I ran until I couldn’t run anymore, and I do mean that in a literal sense. I started having physical ailments, that led to many surgeries, that led to many dreams, that led to me promising soon as I get better I’ll do what I was called to do. Of course I didn’t do it, bills got to calling my name, and work was my first priority, because I was a single mom that had to put food on the table, no matter what! The last surgery I had was almost two years ago, it was a 8 1/2 hour surgery. Whewww... OMG 😓!!! That one was hard to come back from, it was then that I understood either be who you were created to be, or don’t exist! Now, I was terrified because, I knew I was going to be walking into unchartered territory for me, and from the limited understanding/programming I did have about walking in the shoes of my ancestors, meant I was going to be working in a spirit world I knew nothing about, and had been programmed to believe like many others, our ancestors conjured evil spirits and did the devils work. I hesitated, procrastinated and dragged my feet until I kept coming across post from I believe it was Tina. I did reach out to her, she was so polite and helpful, but I didn’t follow through with the plan because once again I just wasn’t ready, I was afraid. I don’t recall what switched in my head, or in my spirit. But I do remember thinking, I’m tired, I’m tired of not having a purpose, I’m tired feeling like I’m constantly moving, yet getting no where. My soul opened up and I realized my life is worth living. That is when I made the first purchase, I have yet to light one candle, and I’ve bought quite a few, because there’s a lot of work within myself I need to fix. When the halo candle arrived, I looked at it and put it back in the box. I haven’t lit it yet because I ordered the wrong unhex candle. My ancestors told me to get the candle that returns the hex back to the sender!! 😂😂😂 So I’m waiting on that order to come in, but in the meantime, that Halo candle babbbbyy, was pulling old wounds up, ones that I didn’t remember because I was a child when it happened. I haven’t even lit the candle yet!!! Words cannot explain how excited, and grateful I am to Lala and her family. Thank you from the bottom of my heart! Your work is helping bring the woman I Am created to be. I’m looking forward to this journey, and I’m happy as hell to have like minded people to talk too, learn from, and grow with. Let the journey begin! Edited to update with photo. This is the 6th pentacle reverse curse, protection candle. Look at that flame!!! The candle was almost gone,and the flame was still reaching out the container. I feel so much better. For the first time in a long time I finally feel relaxed.
Love the testimony, queen.
This was a delightful read.... Thanx for sharing. I like this awakening that our people are having.
Thank you🙏🏽, this really hit home for me it seems when you deny your calling especially when you have strong gifts life struggle gets harder, I too try to fit in but with no success due to fear of spirit world take one step forward then one step back but deep in my heart it's the only thing that gives me life. ❤
It’s so amazing how this is passed down through bloodline, but so sad that we’ve been so far removed from our own heritage. It always catches me off guard when someone is sent to tell me to get busy, yet I do it to other people. I wish you all the best on your journey and please share your stories of growth, and experiences. It’s all invited and encouraging. ❤️
Thank you, for your Testimony! My Mother and I were outcast in my Family, God rest her Soul since I was 3 years old I could see and Talk to People who have crossed over and also could read Tarot Cards, at that Time they were like the Prettiest pictures i've ever seen. My Mother had the gift also, but because my Family were devoutly Catholic it was a Huge problem! A Friend of my Mother told her that when she denied her Gift I absorbed her Energy. Which was way to powerful for a 3 year old to absorb they told my Mom I was strange and needed Medication. I was able to make Baths and knew about Herbs to help others with my gift! As you grow older your gifts will become stronger! I took a trip to New Orleans in 2017 and a Woman came up to me and knew my name she said she was a descendant from the French Quarter Ancestors from long ago and I needed to come Home! I was hiding the whole night in my Hotel! Thanks for sharing.
Great! I too have looked at how we or most of us were brain washed in religion growing up. I was raise Catholic and have not practice it for many years now. I just didn’t feel at complete peace going into church for mass. I especially, took a hard look at Catholicism when I got divorce and began to think. I too longed for what black people or Africans did spiritually and wanted to know just that. I will be digging deeper into my ancestry. My mother side of my family is Caribbean and my father southern from Mississippi/Louisiana area. I definitely want to tap more into who I am and what it means to be me.
Thanks for sharing.