For most of my life I’ve been running from who I was created to be. I just wanted to be normal, you know...fit in!! When the messages would come, I would block them, I didn’t want to hear shit, I didn’t want to tell anyone shit, I didn’t want to see shit, I didn’t want to feel anyone else’s shit!!! As we all know living a lie can only last for so long. So, eventually I started going to church, and I have to say it was a great experience. For the first time in my life I felt normal. Having the ability to prophesy, and all the extras, gave my life meaning. Until one day I crossed the threshold of the church doors and I heard clearly, there is only so far you can go here. I would get this message over and over almost every time I walked through those doors. Then the dreams started again, dreams I’d been having but had stopped for awhile. When I asked what was the message behind this one dream in particular, I was told to learn your history. So I did!! Babbbbyyyy let me tell you that journey was hell in a hand basket. Yet, I learned! What I learned caused me to walk away from the church, unfortunately I put those running shoes back on and I was at it again. I ran until I couldn’t run anymore, and I do mean that in a literal sense. I started having physical ailments, that led to many surgeries, that led to many dreams, that led to me promising soon as I get better I’ll do what I was called to do. Of course I didn’t do it, bills got to calling my name, and work was my first priority, because I was a single mom that had to put food on the table, no matter what! The last surgery I had was almost two years ago, it was a 8 1/2 hour surgery. Whewww... OMG 😓!!! That one was hard to come back from, it was then that I understood either be who you were created to be, or don’t exist! Now, I was terrified because, I knew I was going to be walking into unchartered territory for me, and from the limited understanding/programming I did have about walking in the shoes of my ancestors, meant I was going to be working in a spirit world I knew nothing about, and had been programmed to believe like many others, our ancestors conjured evil spirits and did the devils work. I hesitated, procrastinated and dragged my feet until I kept coming across post from I believe it was Tina. I did reach out to her, she was so polite and helpful, but I didn’t follow through with the plan because once again I just wasn’t ready, I was afraid. I don’t recall what switched in my head, or in my spirit. But I do remember thinking, I’m tired, I’m tired of not having a purpose, I’m tired feeling like I’m constantly moving, yet getting no where. My soul opened up and I realized my life is worth living. That is when I made the first purchase, I have yet to light one candle, and I’ve bought quite a few, because there’s a lot of work within myself I need to fix. When the halo candle arrived, I looked at it and put it back in the box. I haven’t lit it yet because I ordered the wrong unhex candle. My ancestors told me to get the candle that returns the hex back to the sender!! 😂😂😂 So I’m waiting on that order to come in, but in the meantime, that Halo candle babbbbyy, was pulling old wounds up, ones that I didn’t remember because I was a child when it happened. I haven’t even lit the candle yet!!! Words cannot explain how excited, and grateful I am to Lala and her family. Thank you from the bottom of my heart! Your work is helping bring the woman I Am created to be. I’m looking forward to this journey, and I’m happy as hell to have like minded people to talk too, learn from, and grow with. Let the journey begin! Edited to update with photo. This is the 6th pentacle reverse curse, protection candle. Look at that flame!!! The candle was almost gone,and the flame was still reaching out the container. I feel so much better. For the first time in a long time I finally feel relaxed.
This was a delightful read.... Thanx for sharing. I like this awakening that our people are having.