NEED THE NEXT STEP FOR WHAT SEEMS LIKE THE MOMENT OF TRUTH

I literally had to create a brand new account because my old one wasn't working for some reason. Butttttt llets get to it....I ordered halo, crossroads and DA in September. I have been exclusively dating this guy for almost a year now and I need him to make it official. Hes been in relationships for a long time and feels like he needs time to grow alone. BUt he wont leave me alone either lol. Wish I could give him a "but" but I believe this is my soulmate. There is nothing wrong (aside from the obvious different views and characters and such that we learn from and talk out and obviously we aint perfect), but in all the areas that MATTER, hes it. So anywho I lit Halo, then Crossroads (whew child the experience with thatttt) then waited for my period to drop a couple drops of blood and lit it with my chant, pic and petition. Since then bayyybeeeee... we came back from a tropical vacation two weeks ago. BUtttt obviously the question of relationship keeps coming back and last night I decided I need to uphold my worth (Helllooooo Queen Ariessss) and hes like fuck.... what now? This isnt fair to you but I dont want to leave. I looked at him like "ok and so what you want me to do?" He suggested we change the subject because it became heeeeaaaavvvyyyy when it seemed like we were about to end things. We cant be friends and hes afraid to lose me. Whatttttt do I order??? Its the new year.... I wish I ordered this sooner but want to make sure to play my cards right. Im currently giving him his space.