Storytime/opinions wanted.

Ok so this is gonna be long but I have to explain the situation so everyone can understand... I'm tryna condense like a 15+ year timeframe. When I was 15 I met a guy a guy in the weirdest most innocent way on Upoc ( hella old lol). Let's call him "Phonebae". We fell in love (whatever that is for 15 year olds lol) and would write each other letters, send pics, and txt/talk on the phone for hours. Of course teenage life hit us and we didn't speak as much as we used to but we still kept in contact. We finally met in person when we were like 20. It was great and "things" were done😍🍆🍑🍆🍑🎉 but we fell off again because of adulting (it was never anything negative lol). We always k.i.t though. In February 2018 I started to get into candles and get serious about my spiritual journey. I stopped drinking (wasnt that big on it to begin with) and smoking (🥦). I lit a crown of success fixed candle and asked for many things in my petition including a business and a guy with certain characteristics. About March of 2018 Phonebae randomly calls me and we start talking again. Almost every day we are on the phone with each other. He would always ask to see me but I would give an excuse, the main 1 was that I was starting a business (I did and it was stressful starting it) . I had gotten out of relationship that kind of wrecked me. I had gained weight and many insecurities. I was afraid that Phonebae would think I was fat. So I just kept making excuses as to why I couldn't see him. I was also dealing with another guy who had accepted my weight gain (which honestly wasnt even a lot but you know how that insecurity monster be hittin lol) who unbeknownst to me had a girlfriend/fiance the whole time 😒🚮🚮🚮. I wanted to be a little selfish with myself for the first time in my life since I had been so selfless in the past and got hurt. Finally I gave in to Phonebae around October 2018 and went to see him which ended up with him coming to my house. He noticed the weight gain but was absolutely fine with it/couldnt get enough of it (Dress that fupa up make it sessyyy 😍🤣🤣). We agreed to see each other more. We couldn't stop lol. He had started a new job and there were a lot of women that worked there, he's a Leo so you know how the attention goes lol... I had started to notice a slight difference. One day he made a post on fb that I did not agree with which lead to me stinging him through text (I'm a Scorpio) because I refused his calls. That post triggered things that happened to me in past relationships. He apologized but also also downplayed our "thing". This triggered me even more because I still have the conversations of him professing his love and wanting to take the next step. In retrospect, I didnt have to take it there...I honestly could have flipped it to work for me but I texted him something knowing it would trigger him too and it did, badly. I went to fb and posted "it keep burning my soul that these lame switch" (6lack - balenciaga) on fb knowing he'd see it and unfollowed him on ig. He stopped talking to me that day. I did a pop up a few days later (Christmas eve) and he did not answer or respond to my texts, I waited for like 2 hours, nothing. By this time its Christmas morning and I'm driving home crying. Feeling desperate I reached out to someone for a reconciliation spell, I ended up getting robbed out of my $250, she never sent progress of the spell or the setup, just an email saying she thought she sent it😒😒 I text him letting him know how much I apologize for coming at him like that and let him know if he needs time I'll give it to him. A few days later he unfollowed me on fb, instagram, and snapchat. I got a reading from someone else about a month later and he came up all in it without me asking. She mentioned he was coming back but he needed to work through some stuff because he was dealing with a lot. Around early Feburary 2019 I reached out to do another reconciliation spell with someone else. I actually get pictures, progress and everything. I didnt send anything else until he released his musical project later in Feburary 2019. He finally responded and we actually had conversation on ig dm and in my ig post comments on a post I made showing support for his project. I would randomly post his project and tag him on ig story, just promoting it...a few weeks later he ended up deleting all his social media accounts. I know he hasn't created any new ones because my friends and I have burner fb/ig accounts we share (since like 2010/11 for investigations 🤣🤣) and I looked through his sisters friend lists for him. I decided that I'll just send him holiday/birthday texts since his phone number is still the same. He responds to every one I send! With some small talk sometimes. I'm too nervous to do anything else since I still feel a bit embarrassed for what I did. I also see numbers I associate with him, nicknames I call him, his name in random places, our names together randomly, or random ppl will say his name in the many random conversations I have (not knowing him). I also have dreams about him....at first he was stand offish in them but the dreams are getting more sensual. Idk what it means. I want him back and I want to give him the time and attention he deserves from me, all insecurities aside. Ok so that's the situation. I currently have Halo, Sweetening, Healing, 5th Pentacle of Mercury, 1st Pentacle of Saturn, Deadly Attraction, Rekindle, Obsession, and 4th Pentacle of Venus candles for my situation. Which order do you think is best to burn them? Do I need any other candles? Should I bury them all in my front yard? Should I burn halo all the way through and then start burning the others or burn a halo candle before every candle? Thanks for reading my novel btw lol, I'm a talker if you didn't know.