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I’ve tried calling around and there’s no shelters, idk if they’re hard to find for safety reasons or what ??+ I have a 9 yr old small dog with me and he’s very bonded to me, I can’t leave him. I did have my uncle (bio dads brother) my real father doesn’t want anything to do with me because I’m a part of his past and he wants to focus on his current family - my uncle told me this not sure if it’s true but my dad has never reached out to me so I guess it must be - out of that whole side of the family only my uncle knows what’s going on and he said he’s the only one who can help - he and his wife are shady tho and idk what to think - especially his wife. My hope was to quickly find a job so I can move out or a remote job so I can move around and not be tied down to a location but it’s been ridiculous - def feels like something standing in the way of me getting a job. It’s so bad that I rarely get interviews and if I do they don’t go well or the company ghosts me and never gives me a definitive answer post interview - or it’s close to working out and it falls thru. It’s fucked up. Another concern is my dogs vet - they are the only ones that know how to treat him and don’t sneak extra charges in and when he gets his flare ups he has to stay overnight for 2 nights at least - where my uncle lives is extremely rural (extremely) and there’s no 24 hr vet hospital or care. Also I looked on indeed in that area and there’s less job opportunities there. Idk I’m conflicted on a lot of things.

I'm really so sorry you're going thru this you are definitely in my prayers 🙏

Thank you for keeping me in your prayers, that means a lot to me 🥺

Yes I know, I’m working on leaving. Trying my hardest to get a full time job with good pay and benefits and looking for apartments 40 min away from my current environment. I need peace and a place of my own - I have outgrown this place and these set of people, it’s time to move on and put myself first.

Have you tried putting them or at least the primary antagonist into a honey jar?

I tried the sweetening candle on myself didn’t do a thing…. I want to do it on her but idk how to word it for her to be sweet to me only and not her son and husband. 3 weeks ago I put my mother in sugar to sweeten with some cloves to dominate. I haven’t noticed much difference - for the son and her husband I’m planning on putting them in the freezer with cloves in the water, I just don’t know how i should hide it from all of them.

It’s actually my mom her husband (the “main” narc) who I feel “turned” my mom into one with his Influence… and their son is the golden child (who I was forced to help raise) and they all gang up on me mercilessly to point where they talk over me and don’t let me get a word in. My mother has only been physical with me and given me this treatment does nothing at all to my brother. She was the one I had emotion tied to, but I’m not feeling any love or care her like I did, so idk what happened there, it’s like something switched. I would never ever deal with a significant other who is a narc I have learned a lot over the years living with them and now I can see the red flags. Watched countless videos about narcs and scapegoats thats how I found out there’s a name to how I’m treated, dr Ramani has been a favorite! It is exhausting and you’re right there’s NO winning with them they turn shit right back to you and start projecting what they do onto you. It’s really sinister to witness actually… truly demonic shit, they make you feel crazy when in actuality you can see everything for what what it is and are the actual sane one. The lying, the gaslighting…. The saying stuff and then saying I never said that 2 seconds later…Turning around and calling you the “narc” and the one that “starts fights” etc.they don’t give a fuck if they’re being unfair or anything.

I agree, I’m mentally, emotionally and physically depleted and my brain literally feels fried and I’m showing signs of ptsd but not living here by choice I’m having a hard time finding employment - I need money to support myself. Never seen anyone struggle for a job like I am. It feels like prison. But now I think spirit is wanting me to solely focus on my mental health and getting therapy to heal from this first, maybe that’s why every aspect of my life seems to be blocked…I need to heal mentally and emotionally first maybe in order for the spiritual aspect to flow and for things to get moving for the better in my life??? The reason I haven’t gone yet is because it’s always something going on, I feel like I don’t even get a chance cuz I’m just exhausted all the time, how can I heal if I’m constantly in it. Was thinking I’d move out then get therapy… And yes unfortunately empaths attract narcs.

Thank you for your thoughts, it helps a lot of ppl in similar situations who may not comment on the forum but do see posts like this.

I can definitely understand having a parent that has narcissistic traits but it would be the same treatment with them. Set up boundaries and stick with it. But understand Narcissistic people are truly suffering inside themselves and when you understand this you will learn how to navigate and treat them. But trust me it is exhausting but it gets better. I set up boundaries with my mom and we have no problem going weeks or months without talking to her just give the relationship space. But our parents felt with stuff as well and they don’t have all the answers. We think our parents are suppose to know everything but they don’t. That’s why black sheeps are the goat. They are isolated enough to really get to the bottom of why things are the way they are so they can break true generational curses and that’s attacking trauma! Just take a break and focus on you. Get you to your highest self. Learn your triggers! Access them! Make a plan and get out. Get some space between you and them. You can heal in the same place that broke you. It’s work I’m telling you and it’s lonely but the assignment is bigger than you. Once you heal just remember how many people you are going to help! Now everyone comes to me for advice or suggestions. And it’s okay to have breaking points but don’t stay there. No family is perfect. You just have to play the cards you were dealt. Trust me it could be worst. You got this !

I know what you’re trying to say but it’s hard for me to empathize with someone who is terrorizing me at this point. It’s psychological and spiritual warfare. I don’t want anything to do with my mother her son ans her husband… they’ve all damaged me and took years of my life, years I could’ve enjoyed. I’ve forgiven my mother time and time again only for her to repeat shit and get progressively worse. I don’t recognize this person, it’s like a demon inhabits her now. I always question why me. Why do I get treated like this and no one else in the fam? Hell others in the family see this ans take advantage. Just when I think ok can’t get any worse… it does like unimaginably worse to where I would’ve never thought It could get this bad. I’m crying as I’m writing this, I can’t describe the unfair treatment I’ve been receiving and the things going on Right now to get me to react and I’m having no choice but to suck it up and absorb it. Im completely alone, no job in sight and stuck here would really love to remove myself from this hell.💔🥺I wonder what the purpose of this is? Like why isn’t God/Spirit helping me get a job, I’ve been trying so hard too.